I had a dream that you died.
In my sleep, I cried.
I woke up, mourning over you.
But just to make sure it wasn’t true…
I sent you a message.
Surprised that your number was still in my phone.
I said I wanted to catch up over coffee.
“I’m really not available, sorry”
But I know…
You’re not sorry.
I just wish we could have some closure.
There are some things that I wish
I could’ve told you.
And I know it was over five years ago
That we last spoke candidly,
But never did I expect to see, in my dreams…
And then I remembered,
Three years ago.
I sent you the exact same message
And you also said “no”.
It’s not in the cards…
It’s not in your heart
to be nice to me.
But I just wish we could have some closure.
There are some things
That I probably should’ve told you.
And when I thought you died…
By Beck Tantillo / March 2021